The song for this chapter is Zoe Jane by Staind
Hello! My name is Kaleb! I write here! On occasion!
I’m back, with just under two more weeks of finals to go. For those of you not acquainted with how finals work on my corner of the planet, the school generally gives me a week off to study and then slams me with final exams like a train meeting the body of a car stuck on the tracks. Thus, I’m in that period of time where things actually slow down: the calm before the storm. Between taking nearly 300 photos of gnomes for my Digital Photography And Design class finals and totally scoring with Publishers Weekly, I’m going through a speed-reading session with all the books I’m behind on: including, but not limited to, Looking For Alaska, Once Dead, Twice Shy and OH YES: Breaking Dawn. Onwards — before my professors catch me!
I don’t know if I’ve ever suffered from food poisoning, but I know from many years of experience that fried chicken can very easily make one sick. I have a low tolerance for fatty foods, so that even when I’m eating at Chick-Fil-A (as opposed to the far greasier Popeyes) I immediately feel sick afterward. However, I’ve discovered a remedy for this. After I eat any type of chicken, I immediately take a mint, which clears my mouth of all the remaining chicken-taste (I’m quick to add I didn’t invent this, it’s been in use in restaurants for decades). Unfortunately for Bella, the chicken had actually gone bad.
This seems like an odd, specific detail: the chicken having gone bad. I know the Twilight Saga too well to pass over this without giving it a second glance. Was it really chicken? Was Bella really sick? Was it actually POISONED? Or perhaps I’m overreacting to just some old expired chicken…
I have a feeling that for the remaining duration of Breaking Dawn, I will be plagued with frequent tidbits of Too Much Information. Don’t worry. I can handle it. I will handle it in exactly the same way I handled the paragraphs in Twilight and New Moon about Edward and Jacob’s
– Coincidental lack of clothing at opportune times which led to the revelation of all of the above.
So when I hear about Bella suspecting she might be pregnant, the question isn’t so much of HOW this happened, because we all know HOW this happened, because it’s ALL that’s happened the past 17 days of blissful, secluded island newlywed life. Edward is the LAST person on Earth who should act surprised, since it is at least partially HIS doing. Now that this is beginning to get awkward,
I’m not very happy with Edward’s reaction, which is one of the few times I’ve actually been grumbly about him. What is he doing, acting all icy and cold right now? Surprise, shock, and vampire-instincts aside: that’s really no way to react to your new wife when she tells you that she is pregnant. Suddenly Edward seems to disregard how Bella might feel. Is it really so impossible for a vampire and a human to make a child? I mean, after all: this is a VAMPIRE we are talking about. I would be questioning the possibility of Edward’s existence long before I would even begin to question his offspring.
But Edward seems intent on making this situation absolutely horrible. Did he really call his child a ‘thing’? Where is the kind and considerate guy I read about in Twilight and New Moon and Eclipse, and up to now in Breaking Dawn? I’ve never seen Edward even capable of such words towards Bella or the child growing within her. Does he even know what he is suggesting: to kill Bella’s baby, the child that both of them created?
After observing Edward Cullen for so long, it is very hard for me to believe that he would suddenly turn into this monster in just a few minutes. So I’m left to believe that he is in such a shock right now that he’s not even thinking straight. He might be afraid that Bella is going to die, with so little time of them being together. As I read further, I realized that Edward might actually be blaming himself for what is happening now, and not even registering that there is a child inside Bella, but only seeing something that is a threat to her. In Edward’s mind, any threat to Bella must be dealt with. I wonder deeply what he might do when dealing with the threat might mean killing his own child.
It is wonderful, however, how much seems to change in just one, small moment for Bella. I’m sure having a child was the last thing she was expecting, being with a vampire, who, until now, couldn’t have children. I don’t ever remember her wanting children either (in fact, it seems they disgusted her before now, much like pigs did for me before Isabelle came along). But for Bella, things seem to shift quickly from fear to happiness. How is it that something like this changes someone so much? It’s not a question I can answer, obviously. But comments and emails from many TwilightMOMS mostly seem to speak the same as Bella:
“From that first little touch, the whole world had shifted.”
Of course, Bella’s news immediately reminds me of the recent announcement from Youtube/Twitube’s own Kiera:
Does a video really get happier than that?
QUESTION FOR THE COMMENTS: Do you think Edward is being a bit cold toward Bella, or is he justified in his fear that the child could kill her?
– I forgot to mention that you can begin submitting songs for specific Breaking Dawn chapters on this page.
– It’s official: I am going take trapeze lessons with Maureen Johnson while at Book Expo America. Somehow, I must get video of this… 😀