A guy reads Twilight by Stephenie Meyer (2009-2011)

Reading Breaking Dawn: Chapter 10 (Why Didn’t I Just Walk Away? Oh Right, Because I’m An Idiot)

The song for this chapter is Walking Away by Craig David (suggested by Haley)


Now that summer break is here, the time has come for me to actually get moving on things. I have so much to catch up on, but now that I have all this free time, I suddenly can’t make myself get out of bed. To add to this sloth, as another part of the new-and-improved Kaleb for summer break, I have started a new daily workout routine. This has left me so sore today that my fingers are having a hard time connecting with the correct keys on my keyboard, and I am hurting in places I do not want to imagine muscles being.

Jacob, however, has none of these problems, because he is a werewolf, and werewolfs are teh OMG hawtness. Instead, he’s just been offered the girl he loves by the girl’s own husband, who is basically begging him to go make some babies. For some reason, I get the feeling I have been transported from the world of Twilight into something one might find in a tabloid. This does not bode well.

It’s so interesting, watching Bella from Jacob’s point of view. Since we’ve been stuck inside her head for so long, it’s almost like an out-of-body experience, seeing her through someone else’s eyes. She acts just the same as she did on the outside even when we were in her head, but now I’m left going insane wondering what she is thinking at this time. We used to know this, of course, and we would know what sorts of things she was planning, and how she felt about Jacob and Edward’s proposition to her. But now we’re blocked out: we’re one of the outsiders, who are left to try and figure her strange mind out on our own. Is this what Edward feels, not being able to get into her head?

I found much amusement in this:

She sighed.

“I told you–,” I started to say.

“Did you know that ‘I told you so’ has a brother, Jacob?” she asked, cutting me off. “His name is ‘Shut the hell up.’ ”


The imprinting part was a relief to hear coming from Bella. I am so happy that Bella is finally pointing out this very important fact to Jacob. He will find his true love. He doesn’t need to despair, because at some time, he will imprint on someone. Now that Bella is Edward’s, Jacob is just hurting himself more by hanging on to her when he could be looking for his own true love.

“Edward […] said it was like A Midsummer Night’s Dream, like magic. You’ll find who you’re really looking for, Jacob, and maybe then all of this will make sense.”

Jacob is just young, and immature, and impatient. I can’t blame him, because that’s just who he is. And it would be very depressing to be in his position, because when you truly think you’re looking at the girl who was meant to be yours, it hurts to be told that someone else will come along, because you don’t want anyone else. But there really is still hope for him to find someone, even though that isn’t Bella.

What Edward asked Jacob to convince Bella of was entirely out of line, and many of you agree with me (as shown in the comments on Chapter 9). Edward doesn’t ‘own’ Bella, and he has no right to ‘give’ her to Jacob under any circumstances. His intentions are good, and the plan was made in desperation, but it is this desperation that is throwing everyone into a frenzy. Edward has already had to deal with losing Bella once, even though she hadn’t actually died. He’ll do anything now to keep her.

Bella, however, seems to be the only one who has any sense at the moment, despite the fact she might be a bit loony due to whatever is growing inside of her. Jacob then makes the smart move of leaving entirely. I’m not even saying that sarcastically. It is best for him. It’s not only best for him, but it is best for Bella too, for him to be gone for a while, and let her think. It’s a lot to deal with for Jacob, I’m sure. It’s also a lot for the pack to deal with obviously, when they get the full image of Bella from Jacob:


But are any of them actually prepared for what Sam is telling the to do? This isn’t simply an attack mission against a group of vampires: it is an all-out war between the werewolves and the Cullens, where a state of uneasy peace has existed for many, many years. All their treaties and agreements are suddenly up in the air for this. They’ve fought alongside each other before, against Victoria and her minions. What will it mean when they all get into that battlefield, and are forced to turn on those who were once their allies? I don’t think this will be anywhere near as easy as Sam seems to think.

QUESTION FOR THE COMMENTS: If Bella’s baby died, do you think she would choose to have children with Jacob or would rather stay childless and with Edward? Which would you rather she do?


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100 Responses

  1. Edward; DUH. There's nothing more important to Bella than Edward. If she'd been able to throw him away now, after all they'd been through together, then she would've been fine with leaving him way back in Twilight, or New Moon; hence; the end of the series. So yeah, that one's a no-brainer.

    “Puppies(?)”… eeeww.

    But yeah. (Hopefully you understood something I've written. I'm sooo confusing…)

  2. ok, its interesting hearing what a guy's opinion is on breaking dawn
    but if i could just leave a couple of friendly tips?
    i deffinatly dont want to sound mean just something i noticed
    your posts kind of seem to be repeating a lot of the same things
    such as how edward loves bella and how you used to hate jacob but don't anymore
    and how it is interesting about how jacob feels
    you're posts just need a little…pizzaz
    its kind of boring sometimes
    still a fan though
    and appreciate to hear you're thoughts

    congrats on the book deal too

  3. I agree! Hurry up! My third time reading this book Kaleb and I'm soooo excited for you to get to the next several chapters! Tee hee!

  4. I think she'd probably stay childless… She didn't even like children that much. It was the thought of that baby being hers and Edward's that made her want him so bad she could die for him.

  5. the only reason she wants a baby because its like a minature edward and she could never hurt him so she cant hert the baby because its part edward and she wouldnt have puppies with jacob because that would torment edward and she is a heartless bitch who would do that to him

  6. Yeah… I know most people have already said this…. but she would definitely stay childless with Edward. The only reason she wants this baby is because it is HIS baby.

    I have to admit that, even though I LOVE x infinite this book, Edward's intense desperation (and thus offering Bella to Jacob) bothered me a little. But I'm sure it's only because he wants her to live, no matter what the price he may have to pay, and at this moment he is convinced she will die because of this baby. Being unable to read her mind, and of course the fact that he believes that he is a soul-less monster, he doesn't completely understand all of Bella's intentions. This leads him to believe that if she would die for his baby, she could settle for someone else's baby that she doesn't have to die for, and that someone being one who she loves…. and who comes to his mind? Jacob.

  7. The answer is so obvious I'm surprised you're asking. OF COURSE Bella would stay childless with Edward. She was happy with him before she got pregnant, and she only wants this baby as much as she does because it is his child. As Bella says, it's not like any baby would do. She never wanted children that weren't Edward's children.
    Bella loves Edward more than anything, and made her choice back in Eclipse. She would never go back on that just because Edward can't produce something she never even knew she wanted. And she would never even contemplate going for something in between the two extremes, doing something that would hurt both Edward and Jacob so much (again)—– sleeping with Jacob yet remaining with Edward. Bella is not that heartless, Kaleb.

    BTW, the muscle comment? HILARIOUS!

  8. What kind of idiot would run off with another guy she didn't love as much just because she couldn't have a baby with the one she did love? Bella would have stayed with Edward. She was already prepared to give up children to be with him in the first place, and I don't know why that should change.

    Also, since when did Bella become so….brazen, exactly? I can't see her sleeping around like that, and I don't understand why Edward would ever think she would, but the fact that he did bothers me a lot. I understand he was 'desperate', but that's really no excuse for him to think that Bella would be happy to be 'shared'. This was one of the few times I actually felt like Edward didn't know Bella at all, and Jacob got it just right when he said it was 'sick' for Bella to be treated like a rental movie, or something like that.

  9. I know I was like OMG a grammer mistake!!????????????

    tut tut Kaleb…when you reach those 400 000 followers on twitter, we'll sell the tabloids this XP XP

  10. Breaking Dawn is like a strange netherworld that doesn't seem to fit the series. On the re-reads, I found it was like reading Twilight for the first time. It was uncertain, mysterious, frightening…and you couldn't look away. I know I was the only one of my friends who literally stayed up all night to read the book. In fact, I finished the Jacob section as sunrise hit and went outside to watch dawn break haha. But I felt Breaking Dawn is a strange, more mature mirror of Twilight, and that's why it's moved to my favorite book in the series, knocking Twilight to the number two spot.

    While in Jacob's head, I realized I don't like Bella from the outside. When I'm in her head, I connect with her (except when she's being an idiot in Eclipse, then I want to strangle her). But from the outside, I can see what she's thinking, so she does seem crazy, unconcerned, and ignorant to danger. I also find her whiny, and destructive, the way she devotes attention to Jacob but claims love to Edward. Yeah, I totally understand how other people view her and I don't like it lol.

    I think if Bella loses the baby, she would still be with Edward. It's not just babies she wants. She never wanted kids before. Because it's Edward's, that's what makes her want this one so bad. So a Jacob baby wouldn't compare to Edward's as her true love.

  11. I think she would stay with Edward…I really have no clue what I would do…I don't really know if I would want kids.

  12. ARGGH!!
    I want to know what you think about Rosalie teaming up with Bella to save the baby they want and Edward doesn't. Isn't it awesome that the annoying blonde brat girl who disliked Bella now becomes her ally? She's the protector and nearly the only vampire who sides with Bella. It's a great twist! Bella's forced to turn to the person she doesn't want to deal with. In her time of desperation, she must get help from ROSALIE.
    I know you're focused on the guy side of these things, but, even through Jacob's point of view, we can still see a lot of what Bella's going through.

  13. I think she would have stayed with Edward without a child, because it's not like she'd get that child back, it would be a complete different child. And like she thought on their honeymoon ” They seemed to be loud creatures, often dripping some form of goo. I'd never had much to do with them. [……] This child, Edward's child, was a whole different story.”

  14. i think that this question is really difficult to answer because we are not in the mind of Bella during the second “halF” of her pregnancy. Bella had grown up quite a lot within the months that we missed in between eclipse and breaking dawn which even further causes this question to have a 50/50 answer.

    Bella is sort of finally realizing that maybe she wants a little bit longer to be human. (After the *cough* “private” scene *cough*) so really it just depends on how well she can cope with the fact that her child has died.

    My personal opinion is that she would still stay with Edward because she is married to him now so she does have an obligation whether she feels guilty or not. But i also believe that her love runs deaper with Edward and they would be able to make it through the situation together.

    Speaking theoretically, Bella may have gone with Jacob. Miscarriages do strange things to people sometimes and I believe that if Bella was to be hurled down into pit of depresseion that she would in fact opt to go with Jacob that she could have another child and regain happiness faster….
    but like i said before Bella has matured a lot more than before so I don't believe she would opt for the easier way out.


  15. The problem is that Bella has a one track mind right now. Her baby.
    Edward, Jacob, heck, everyone has NO CLUE why she is clinging on to it.
    I think if Bella's baby did die, she wouldn't be the same. In a sense, she'd die.
    Now Edward wouldn't let Bella actually die but she wouldn't be the same girl
    Edward and Jacob fell for. If I were in Bella's place, I would fight.
    Fight for her 'nudger'.

  16. I just thought it was so obvious that she would find some way to kill herself if the baby died…
    And one thing I want to say in response to some of the comments along the lines of: “It wasn't just any child. It was Edward's child.”:
    Bella didn't want to keep the baby just because it was Edward's… she loved the baby every bit as she loved him, already. Her little nudger. I thought it was just so clearly stated in chapter 7, and then even in this chapter she said: “It's not just any baby. It's… well, this baby.”

  17. “This was one of the few times I actually felt like Edward didn't know Bella at all, and Jacob got it just right when he said it was 'sick' for Bella to be treated like a rental movie, or something like that.” my thoughts exactly Annie, my thoughts exactly!

    Just like everyone else I dont ever see Bella giving up on Edward. I've always wanted them to be together and its inevitable that nothing can keep them apart. If Bella lost the baby it would be a terrible loss and Bella would be devastated, but she wouldnt give up Edward, she wouldnt agree to be shared and she wouldnt use a child with Jacob as a substitute.

    Edward was a fool to think she would, but part of never reaching full maturity to an adult in his own life, never having any desire to start a family with anyone he doesnt quite grasp the concept that Bella as a mother-to-be would do anything to ensure her childs survival. Edward is so used to protecting Bella, risking his existance and the existance of his family for her, that he cant understand that for once Bella has the opportunity, the responsibility to do that for someone else, he cant get over his own protective instinct. I think that thats another reason besides being “desperate”

    anyway till next time 😀 melissaturkey

  18. “Bella didn't want to keep the baby just because it was Edward's… she loved the baby every bit as she loved him, already. Her little nudger. I thought it was just so clearly stated in chapter 7, and then even in this chapter she said: “It's not just any baby. It's… well, this baby.”” I agree E, not that she would kill herself (Bella would consider all the other people who love her I think and would keep going because of them, sort of like when she “lost” Edward and she kept going for charlie) but that she loved the baby because it was hers and it was her child and she had bonded with this baby, just like she would any child she held within her but it was THIS baby, anyother reason she wouldnt settle for a substitute.

  19. I don't think this question needs to be asked, because we both know that everyone knows that you know the answer. lol.

    This chapter made me so irritated with Edward, and at this point, I started to dislike Breaking dawn, which is a shame to admit.
    Bella loves Edward, and if the baby were to die, then it would be hard to accept, but she still would. Besides, she won't have children with Jacob, because the baby she is having now is not just any baby, it's her and Edward's- that's the point. And even before everything, Bella was perfectly content just being with Edward forever without having a child. When she chose him, she was ready and had accepted that she can't have children. What difference does this make if she remains childless?
    I don't think Bella is in desperate need of a child anyway, so I guess that makes me answer to the question pretty apparent.

  20. She wants the child because it's Edward's. So she'd stay childless with him and not want one with Jacob. Bella just wouldn't be able to betray Edward like that. I can't imagine Jake and Bella together. I don't even read fanfictions with BellaxJake pairing…

  21. Of course she would stay childless with Edward. Bella has her head on straight (usually) and would not even consider being with someone else (especially Jacob), because she loves Edward too much.

    Bella would NEVER risk her relationship with Edward or her relationship with Jacob by doing something soo horrendous by having babies with Jacob (or anyone else for that matter). I do believe something like that would drive all three of them somewhat “insane”, in a way. Bella is much smarter than that.

    Even if this baby “awoke” the mother desire in her, she would just try to deal with it, as Esme did.

  22. I agree with your position of Jacob's immaturity.
    I disagree, however, with the “ownership” of Bella; offering with selflessness and compassion does not indicate Edward “owns” Bella in any way.

    Kudos, keep up the good work 😉

  23. I totally agree with you, Alba.

    Jacob is doing the best he can, with the experiences he's had. He has had to deal with soo much, that wasn't of his own making. I admire him for doing as well as he has, as young as he is. He has fought his natural instinct (as a teen and as a wolf!) to do something violent, but he always calms himself the best he can, and makes the right choice.

    Even when he says he is going to kill Edward when Bella dies, he knows down deep that he can't do it. He can't start the war with the Cullens or harm any of them, as bad as he is hurting. He is the whole reason that the wolves continue to fight for the Cullens and not against them. He even leaves his pack, as difficult as that was, to defend Bella and the Cullens.

    To be able to go against his own feelings to do what is right, is a huge sign of maturity.

    Jacob is awesome. Period.

  24. I don't want Jacob to suffer like he is, but he and Bella cannot be together. Bella must be with Edward.

    Bella is not stupid or the other word you used to describe her. She is going with he heart, which is exactly what she SHOULD do. Yes, she loves Jacob, too. But Edward is first in her heart, and she knows it, Jacob knows it and Edward knows it.

    Can you imagine the hurt they would all three feel if she were to have a baby with Jacob? It would be just unfathomable.

    The good thing is, Jacob will imprint on his true love and no longer suffer and can be Bella's best friend again.

  25. I have to disagree with part of your answer. Yes, she loves the baby so much because it is Edward's. But she loves the baby on it's own merit, not just because it is Edward's baby. She could never get rid of it, no matter what. She loves the baby itself now, and she couldn't separate herself from it no matter what.

  26. I think that all of them would hurt worse if she chose to have a child with Jacob.

    Right now, the most important thing to her is the baby, and even later on.
    She adores Edward and he is half of her, but she puts the baby first, above herself and Edward.

    That is how most moms would feel.

    You can't really understand that until you have a child yourself.

  27. Can totally understand that. It's hard to believe that Bella and Jacob are still teens.

    They really are very mature for their ages in many ways…

  28. Bella would obviously be upset if she lost the baby, but she wouldn't hurt Edward by going off with Jacob, I think.

  29. She would stay with Edward! She said in an earlier chapter that she didn't want kids. And then (I'm pretty sure it was this chapter), she said that she wanted THAT baby because it was Edward's. She told Jacob that it was completely out of the question to have his babies. Awkward…but anyhoo…she pretty much only wants that baby because it's Edward's. I'm sure she'd love Jake's babies, too, because they'd be hers…but it wouldn't be special. She's in love with Edward and she wants his children. Okay…I'm done! 🙂

  30. It's EDWARD's child she wants, not Jacob's. Plus, she said at the beginning of the book that if it becomes a problem she'll just adopt. It already has become a problem, a big one, so she'll just adopt with Edward.

    And come on – a child with Jacob? Ew….Even I'm shuddering at the thought. Like you said Kaleb, he's immature and young and…..I'm sorta Team Edward!!!!!

  31. She would definitely stay childless. If she became desperate for a child (which i doubt she would) her and Edward could adopt like Esme and Carlisle, but I think their maturity of 17 & 18 years old wouldn't really encourage their want for children. That made absolutely no sense haha, but to be fair I'm tired and I just had to write a speech on Macbeth.

  32. She would definitely stay childless & stay with Edward. She loves him so much & they are meant to be together. Before she got pregnant (which no one could have thought was possible) she didn't think about or want children. And honestly I didn't really see Bella as the mother type before. But now that she's pregnant part of the reason she wants to keep the child is because it's Edward's child.

  33. its a bit sick but i would thats just me cuz i like jacob more but bella loves edward more so she'd proli stay childless.but id say i want her to stay childless cuz it would be wrong of her to go with jacob no matter how i want them to be together its not rite, not if edwards in her life and they love each other still.

  34. CHILDLESS!! why would she want anyone's kid anyway? her relationship w/ Edward is so wonderful.They can share a great life without kids. She doesnt HAVE to have any. Why mess it all up with a kid???

  35. She would rather have stayed childless than be away from Edward.And I am sure about that.

  36. childless
    she loves edward more
    she only wanted the child because it was edwards
    she wouldnt want kids with some else
    but bella owes jake so…..
    i still think she would stay childless

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